I'M COMING BACK SOON...BEEN WORKING WITH MY FRIEND ON A BOOK...YOU CAN FIND ME ON FACEBOOK

LOOK AT WHAT I DID...I CAN NEVER BE STILL...I THINK THIS IS KIND OF COOL...NOT TO BE ME, ME, ME...IT'S MORE LIKE...I WOULDN'T HAVE DONE THIS TO ANYONE ELSE'S PHOTO...

I WILL BE BACK WITH SOME MIRACLE STORIES...STORIES OF HOPE, LOVE...GOD.  THE RIGHT THING...

I WILL ALSO EXPOSE THE CRIMINAL TRUTHS ABOUT CHENEY, PAILIN, LIMBAUGH...AND ABOUT THE "WE LOVE YOU...GOD LOVES YOU...AND THESE ARE THE CONDITIONS OF LOVE..." EVANGELICAL "CHRISTIANS" THAT LOVE YOU ONLY ON CONDITION...AND IF YOU JOIN THEM IN THEIR HATE...

I LOVE YOU ALL...WITHOUT CONDITION...AND THANK YOU FOR STAYING WITH ME SINCE HOLLYWEIRD...AGAIN, ACCEPT MY APOLOGIES FOR BEING AWAY SO LONG...

BLESS YOU!

This photo came out really neat...it looks like something celestial. If I was "something celestial",  I would put a stop to the lies, propaganda and greed of some members of the GOP party ie Sarah Palin, Mitt Romney, Rush Limbaugh, DICK Cheney...you name them. Their "good old fashioned 'moral' Christian Values" are not at all Christian...and they are not MORAL!!!

They love on the condition that you have to hate the same people as them...then you are loved. Money to them means everything. They tingle when they start fraudulent Wars... Bush/Cheney were planning the War before entering office, it's not a big secret.

Cheney and his forgetful memory statements about torture and killings are lies, a crime and UN Christian...After all War,$, Hate, Lies, Corruption and Murder are the things Jesus, CHRISTians and God say are WRONG, BAD AND A SIN!

I LOVE YOU...without condition. I've been to Hell...and I'm NOT going back...
 
I had a dream that Sarah Palin and DICK Cheney were sent to DICK's Waterboarding prison cells.
 
I think, in frustration, my dream resolved the fact that Sarah, no matter how many counts and legal accusations she has before her and pending are dismissed...and they continue to be dismissed...because she bribed her State's People...she and her "contracts" to personal friends for Government Jobs......she did a lot of favors...and God Bless anyone that crosses her...She bought and sold Alaska... And got a new beautiufl home among other things...Good Christian Values and Morality would have her home taking care of her children and teaching them about condoms...and caring for her special needs child.
 
Like Cheney did with our Freedom and America...his forgetfulness over the memories of cia orders, torture, eavesdropping, taking prisoners on speculation and on and on and on...I think in my dreams...God gave me relief that Justice will be done...and Love and Light will shine brighter...and those criminals and others will just slink away.


Love,

Jim xo

BACK OFF GREEDY PEOPLE...I NEED HEALTH INSURANCE! or DON'T LISTEN TO "THEM" SCARING YOU...YOU NEED HELP LIKE ME!

I can't name the many corporations ceo's that, what shall I say, benefited the most by Bush/Cheney/Satan Administration...by raking in the dough at the top...and stealing from the front line workers.

Anyway, after following the "ceo's" and the "owners" and the "investors" and the "contracts" of Bush's Medicare...and prescriptions drug companies...and Insurance Companies...etc...Guess where they all trace back to?So, of course the Republican parties...and the "Dems in disguise" don't want a thing to do with the health care proposals that come from Obama and his team.They will NOT be able to benefit by contract and PRICE GOUGE! They can't steal anymore.They can't line their pockets by deciept.They are using every fear tactic by presenting it to us through Repug media...etc...as if it were almost Communist...not Socialist.These terms that describe the way our country is headed aren't at all what is going on.

These are words people toss out and ignorant greedy hate ridden pigs spread them like a disease...Scaring people...into wanting another Bush.

The Obama Teams Heath Plan is a tool that is going to be used as a "survial skill" for us as American's... to be well enough to work together in the recovery work our country needs.

There is nothing to lose with Obama's Plan...After all...What other choices do a lot of us have?

I'd hate to see people continue to be in painful, sick, sad, scared...and deadly illness because they aren't among the few that afford health insurance...or those that are among the many that are being ripped off and thrown into debt by being forced into a Communist heath insurance.

The last administration left us in the dust...taking all they could grab like a whirlwind...and now they are bitching for more.

Don't they have enough already?Remember Georgey in Kindergarten? Now, now Georgey, Mitty and Dickey...you have to share with Jimmy, Mikey and Lyddie.I'm letting deceipt in the name or corporate greed and corruption get to me

...And it makes me need this insurance even more.

Bless us all.

The Look Of A Lost Soul...That Believes Not In God!

This is a picture of me taken at a friends house up on the North Shore...in the Town of Beverly. My friend is amazing, eclectic, eccentric and she's the type of girl that you just love to hear her laugh...So the jokes roll on.

There is a little weird history on my friend's house.

I is a large mansion surrounded by stone walls and iron gates.

The lighting is eerie.

There is a court yard.

There is a Ball Room.

There is a library.

There are staff bungalows.

It's a condo now...and my friend rents an apartment there.

It was at one time a brothel.

It's been there so long that the house speaks it's stories through what you see...what you feel...how you behave...

Sometimes Curious.

Sometimes Scared.

Always Fascinating.

For it was in these parts that witches were burned on the beach.

This house was part of the underground railroad.

This house was a porthole to freedom...

To a new beginning...

Optimism...Hope...Determination...

All backed by Love and God.

How could anyone fail with God on their side?

My friend lifted up, what looked like a stationary cabinet, and it sort of was like a trap door.

You open the door and you think its just a little storage area.

She shimmy's something...and voila!

It is The Underground Rail Road.

She says the tunnels at one time ran through to the City of Boston...via all suburbs.

Fear...Determination...

Determination...

Blessed God...

Freedom.

The picture I posted was taken at this house when I thought they were just adjusting the camera...there were many like these...those guys kept snapping my picture, without flash...as I stared into Nothing.

Nothing is where God isn't

We all have something.

Scientist, Mathematicians, Biologists...Geniuses...

Can all debate on God or Nothing.

Big Bang?

Who caused it.

Why does the solar system work so perfectly.

In nature...where we are from...

All from God.

Are perfect.

In a metaphoric image...

There is a devil...a demon...a sinister force.

You can't have good without bad.

That defies the laws of Nature.

And God.

If anyone doesn't believe...

And this life is all there is...

And we just go nowhere...

Nothing.

A Lost Soul.

No more love.

No more Spirit.

No more God.

I'm praying for you now...

For those that have made their decision

That we go nowhere...

Follow people like myself...

My Good Friend...Lydia Cornell http://www.lydiacornell.com/

The Full Circle

Rejuvenates

And comes back for you...

Until you believe...

And even then...

We never leave you.

God never leaves you...

We are heirs and heiress to his promise of everlasting life...

In his Kingdom.

Again, in that picture...that look and the weird lighting...and the weird creepy feelings you get with drafts and sounds...in a "haunted house"

My face looks like I'm not there.

My face looks like God's not there.

It scared me.

Now I have a reason to turn it into a little miracle...

Things aren't always what they seem.

You can't read people by expression, color, creed, politics...

But some people do...and make judgments and decisions on their own.

That is without God.

Hey Everybody...

The healing has begun...

Let's rejoice.

My love is pouring into these words...

And they will be read and spoken...

And it will come back to me...

Like life, love, the planet and God...

Full Circle.

Just Believe.

Hate...Because Of A Person's Feeling Of Entitlement!

If you look closely at the center of the fire...you might see the image of a sinister, evil face...


Sort of like a demon. Fire, Hate, Burning, Pain...Who will put it out?

















Hi Friends,

I haven't updated since 15Jul09...I've been busy, weddings, appointments and then the bout of my kidney thing really had me thrown down.


I did do a story for CNN Ireport about the whole Sgt Crowley and Prof. Gates hate thriving media twisting mess.


I live in a Suburb near Cambridge...I know the area. It's like when I lived in Beverly Hills...you cross 1 street and you go from Hell's Kitchen to a totally opposite place. I know Sgt Crowley, personally...as I've worked with him a few times over the past few years. Put it this way, he would always come with his best friend, not that it matters, a black man. He teaches his "racial profiling" classes with urgency to NOT be a racist...people aren't always what they seem...and the folks you'd never expect...are the bad guys...etc...


I also know of the Prof. Gates reputation. He teaches here. My friend, a female, took a course of his for "enlightenment" and bridging gaps. Let's just say this, he bashes the "oppression" thing into the ground...and doesn't have positive things to say about society and good people. He creates a wedge with his teachings of racism and oppression. This is a bit of what I know as a professional...and on a personal level...he's rude, abrupt and arrogant.


The whole media thing grabbed and ran with this...and it shouldn't have happened. People chose sides...didn't have all facts...and it was a crime like the L.A. riots. I lived through that...


One of the very few incidents in Beverly Hills, found me, like always, right smack in the middle.


I was waiting in line for gas...traffic bumper to bumper on Wilshire...as all people were fleeing home. I had friends that flew from Boston and were air born before the Riots broke out. Sitting in the gas line I started to see a crowd of men with bats and chains etc...stomping from car roof top to car roof top...screaming, breaking windshields...etc...


Then I saw a man take a baby from the back of an SUV and run...I was about to get out of my car when I saw that he came back for the mother...it was the station attendant bringing them to safety.



Not that it matters, the mom and child were White...the rescue hero Gas Station guy was Latino...and the violent crowd of men were African Americans.



Then out of nowhere 20 squad cars screeched up with guns in hand. I didn't stay for the rest...



I went home and suffered from the curfews, lungs burning from smoke and asthma...no pay because productions were paused as well as my bar tending job at a bar and grill on Beverly Drive was closed.


These are the type of things that happen when a racial slur is spat...from any culture...and the person feeling "entitled" to hurl these statements are the actual racists.


In the Rodney King example...


The man WAS pummeled by the police. I don't know if it was right or wrong BUT, it went to court and the judgement was made. If people felt a sense of "injustice" for Rodney King...did they have to burn, kill and hate...in their own neighborhoods? Among their family and friends...this is how people screaming "INJUSTICE" are actually aggravating the claim they make...Burning and Killing and Stealing...are all "INJUSTICES"! This is what I mean by folks rallying hate...running with it...and suffering the consequences.


People across all colors and faiths and cultures are doing it everyday. Take it? NO! Deal with it by means of Civilized Humans? Yes.



Right or Wrong...I didn't do it...I had no part in it...So, because a hate rally finds me guilty because of my color, address, car and income...again, having no part in Rodney King's case what so ever...I need to burn, suffer and hide.


Sounds like, "guilty by asscociation" crap.


Sounds like the events and crimes during Nazi Germany.


In Gates vs Crowley MY opinion is based of personal and professional knowledge. Research from all sides of what the American people were doing and saying.


An assessment of the situation...and the following nonsense that went on and on.



People, including the president were quick to judge and make statements and slurs...without any knowledge of the full facts. BTW it's all on tape.



You can imagine the hate bashing I received on CNN Ireport...the comments people made, in the name of racism...were very racist, arrogant and ignorant. When I asked for the facts that brought them to their conclusion...they fell short.


They were guilty as the supposed crime they were rallying for.


Nice.


I have just got news from 4 friends that they received a "reference check" call regarding the position I applied for as an advocate for people that don't know the ropes of programs or treatment they are eligible for.


I'd really dig being one of the advocates for folks that need someone like me.

After my whole kidney scare again...I woke up today feeling better...and fearless. When I have a flare up I hibernate...this time I thought I had "end stage renal failure" because, I read a lot of medical sites, and I have no chemistry skills, and I was diagnosing myself. I saw my doctor and same old same old...surgery and remission.At least I know...and have been there a million times.


Sound familiar? Drawing my own conclusions...based on my ignorant opinion. I had myself dead and buried.


I'm not a doctor...I didn't have all the facts...

Yet...I scared myself to death...and decided, this is my "death sentence" without the proper facts or knowledge. I just decided.

And that not only screwed me with fear...I brought along my loved ones too.
THAT is being guilty of not having enough facts to support my opinion.


Lastly, you know how some of us that are VERY close...full of love and heart for each other... almost pick up each others thoughts? Then call or email or message a few words pertinent to what is going on to someone?

This time it was one very close person in my life to have a turn.

I woke to read, 1 line about today being a great day and feeling fine and yesterday is over and no worries, kind of sentence...in a simple text.



There are no co incidents...and my check in with my heart and soul loved friend confirmed that they just had a hunch.


I'm so blessed...and so are you and everyone.

A lot of people just don't know it.
Some just need to get out of self and into God.
And the world can return to harmony and away from destruction and selfishness.

Buy an elderly woman in line at the doughnut shop....her coffee and muffin.
I do stuff like that to express my gratitude to those that worked so hard for all we have.


And the...

Full Circle

Returns...

And Completes...

Once again.



Jim

The Good Ol' Days...when Nana or Ma couldn't get us in the house!!!

Call me old...call me weird and out of touch.

I was just wondering if anyone shared any of these thoughts.

When I was growing up...as far back as I can remember (believe it or not my earliest memory was at 2!) kids had wild and crazy imaginations. They liked to be among other kids. Yeah, we had toys...and sports equipment and books (I loved to read before bed) but, we always wanted to be outside playing Super Heros or Star Wars...or stick ball...Tag...Red Rover...swimming, kick ball...you name it.

Today, if I forget my blackberry...I'm screwed. I don't retain people's phone numbers. I always had a ton of numbers in my head...and there were many...and names and appointments etc...How did we evolve so quickly...so rapidly to depend on technology to get by on your day?!?!?

I remember looking things up in the dictionary...going to the library...reading a really cool book (gnawing on my lower lip because the suspense would be killing me) reading the newspaper... Today, even though it was my whole business and field...I don't watch TV...The last movie I saw was "Doubt" and before that it was Fantastic Four...the 1st one!!!

Today's kids seem to have a problem with social skills. I write this as I'm on my own website...connected to the world...on a computer! Digital. Oh geez.

Also, kids have so much more than we ever had. My grandmother and mom invested in traveling. There were 7 kids all together. Five brothers and sisters and a cousin. We were at the beach or driving to Washington DC or Florida or Montreal...then over to San Francisco or Seattle then Alaska and Oregon. I'm in the travel industry and the world is my oyster.

I feel kind of like (God didn't bless me with children) kids are plopped in front of the TV or Computer with the most life like visionary toys that I almost die. Violence...blood...you name it.

Television is so rapidly fragmented that the kids don't absorb anything like my days of "Romper Room" (my very first television show at 5 years old with Miss Jean...on the set I remember seeing the Magic Mirror was not real and being heartbroken) Sesame Street, Pixan, Zoom, The Electric Company. Even cartoons were geared toward children having morals and values...

I'm not jaded...I guess it's the way of the world.

I remember my Aunt Joan, My grandmother and my Mom buying me a car like thing. You would sit in it and pedal your heart out...driving for a 4 year old. To this day she laughs as all we wanted to do was play with the box it came in.

Thank you God for the childhood I had...and letting me get to where I can appreciate what I have...and not reaching for more and more and more... Don't get me wrong I work hard for a new printer or to invest in something fine but, I take the time to smell the roses.

Bless you all.

Mom's have the hardest jobs in the world.

And you do a fine job.

Jim

Pailin...winking her way out...in other words...I think there is BIG trouble in the Queen's Empire

Red...
For the color of blood on your hands.

Palin and Romney have the worst social graces. They are supposed to be representing something good about our country as "Americans" themselves...yeah, right.

I've said before...here in Massachusetts Mitt Romney...sold us down the river. And believe me did he sell and we paid big. I don't want to get too deep as I have a story coming up related to this. I lost my sister a couple of years ago...3 or 4. Romney was in office. He deemed that state run places for the mentally retarded and the very low functioning...were not necessary. He was on this, "lets mainstream them...treat them like humans." Well, Mitt...they were mainstreamed. A lot have died. Lost...without friends, family, a familiar face. Here is your small stipend disability check...here is your rent controlled place. Someone might check in on you once and a while...now go shopping for yourself...live your life be free.

I said, gone.

My sister would have died without the Fernald Center. He axed that to crap. Unable to recover...people are trying their hardest.

Patti, my sister, wasn't even supposed to reach puberty. I handed her back to God...from my arms...1 month before her 40th birthday. Thank you God. Thank you Fernald Staff...I'll be posting Patti's story soon...for she alone was the wisest, most happy and loving person I'll ever know. Though deemed "disabled" she couldn't walk or talk but, she worked mountain moving miracles.

I brought up Mitt because I've been reading Palin articles...and they include her departure as a set up for "classy" Mitt Romney. 2012.

Mitt and his huge state spent hairspray bill could have helped the American starving children...I say that kind of in jest but, not really...

I just have a hunch that...as I've said before, in response to my friend, Lydia Cornell's question, Why are Republicans so Scared?

The truth is unraveling...like President Obama said something to the effect of...Hey, I'm not perfect...and have a cabinet and you to help me make this work. The Republicans are scared that this is working for you and me...and their threat of master/slave culture is getting further and further from view. All that work. All that hate. All those killings. Now Mr and Mrs Middleclass Nobody wants more...then more...next...we will be providing them affordable health care!

Where are you going, Sarah? Like I said, you have 0 social graces for a woman in your position. You're up there with Paris Hilton.

She's probably going to be the 1st Republican Government woman from Alaska...to pose "classy" nude for playboy.

I think she's in trouble.

I'll pray for you Sarah...

Because you hate people like me...

And in my previous story...

My heart and home are in a...

HATE FREE ZONE

Blessed are the Peacemakers...for they are the ones that truly do God's work.

God...Bless and Protect Us All...

GOD DELIVERS!!!

When you pray to always do the right thing...God delivers...in the strangest ways, sometimes.

I was just in a parking lot about 15 minutes ago...and I looked at the car next to mine. Tommy was driving and I was waiting for him...I was in the passenger seat. A woman with beautiful skin came past me...we nodded and smiled. She was just about to close the door when I realized she had a little sticker on her window.

HATE FREE ZONE

So...you know I have to talk to her...my window was half opened and I motioned to her to roll down her window.

In a 10 minute conversation...I, in my heart and soul, believe God placed her there.

I'll tell you why.

She was parked too close to my door for me to get in the car at first. Tom pulled the car out...I got in and he parked the car again. I was a little grumbler...I have been lately. The weather here has been very gloomy...London, Seattle...You know?

I've been feeling very uninspired. I shut the world...and my loved ones off. I withdrew into a dangerous place...ME MYSELF AND I. I was in self pity...I was bitching to my self...degrading my self...all alone. I stayed in bed...and it actually hurt to get up and pee or get a drink.

I had an appointment today...to be a hair model, with my mom too.

We got to talk...I was mono tone...Gloomy, threatening skies.

The sky is crying.

After seeing this sticker...and meeting this lady...my life turned....

No, the sky is not crying, the sky is blue...(somewhere...or it'll be back)

We in 10 minutes, spoke of love, pain, religion, SPIRITUALITY, equality, gratitude...and just about what we are all supposed to be about. Like an open antenna...receiving and giving love...

Full Circle.

There are no co incidents...

And, Lady...I'm really bad with names but I never forget a face...

I'm thanking God for you as I write...as I have been since our meeting.

Tommy remarked, "OH, GEEZ...HE'S BAAAAACCCKK~"

Yes, I am...thank God.

People open your hearts.

Believe in Miracles.

Let's work together.

Let's not size each other up.

Let the weary gain strength.

Let us forgive the sins that put the world where it is now.

Lets make everything, together, the way we always wanted it.

The way God wants it.

His demands aren't heavy...

Do the best you can...

Enjoy his gifts...

Love one another...

...and the PROMISE...

No, I will not leave you...

And you will not die...

For you shall have everlasting life...

That is my mission. To grasp at that. I'm a regular guy...I get caught up in crap.

I believe.

I wasn't expecting it.

God never left me.

God delivered.

In the market parking lot....

Just when I needed it most.

"...there are angels here on earth...and some of them are way up there in heaven...."

Love

Full Circle

I'm Better

Thank God.

...and THANK YOU...MISS...you know who you are...I do too...

A little Polical Thing...A respone I had written on my friend Lydia Cornell's website regarding the question...Why are Republicans so afraid?

The image above I found on my computer...this picture was taken last winter. It's weird how these strange tricks of light happen in pictures. This one always reminds me of an angel caught by the camera...It's like protection. From darkness...evil...saddness...loss...and WAR.
Tom had taken this picture...he called me and I looked over my shoulder...and he snapped by surprise...and this is the dramatic result...I think it's fitting for this litte political thing for the reasons explained above.
I'm glad I can share it with you...

Yes, I am very outspoken politically...it's part of my "The Right Thing And God...And My Quest..."

Below please read what I had written on my friend Lydia's site. She has the best, hot topics...

And I'm NOT afraid...

The truth shall set you free...

Republicans are running scared because, they are one by one, actually, many by many...are being exposed for the crimes they have committed. Self severing people. The last 8 years of what happened to our beautiful country and all its people...is now an exposed crime. Did George and Company really think we were that dumb? While we were terrified over terrorists...and watching the repug fed media..."the war on terror" was a shameful fraud...a distraction for us here in the states. We were being robbed blind by our own leaders. The people didn't select them...the money bought them...and they delivered. All the while "the war on terror" (not the war on oil...or the 'illusion of terror') ran on and on and on...what the hell are they fighting for? Everyone is dying over there...Americans and regular normal people just like you and me from the war torn countries.If George and Company wanted to battle the war on terror...HE SHOULD HAVE DONE IT RIGHT HERE IN AMERICA...SECURING THE BORDERS...SHOWING UP WHEN THE SUPPOSEDLY UN BREACHED LEVY'S IN NEW ORLEANS FLOODED AND KILLED PEOPLE JUST LIKE YOU AND ME.Everything they stood for was so Un-American.I love what good ole Joe Biden said.When George and Company were elected (yeah right) into office...George put up a "FOR SALE" sign on the White House's front lawn.Freedom bought changed hands and was sold. Those that let, without any feelings of...I don't know...shame...sadness...guilt... etc... are now being head hunted... where did the money go? Why did you do that? How could you let that happen?They are scared because the new "Left Team" is coming to get them...and they have no where to hide.Pray.God forgives you...and we as Christians should forgive you...BUT...not everyone is like that...Sorry.

I was thinking what I had written was really harsh...then I saw Mitt Romney's face (he and his slick $200 haircut...and nasty sneer) and I thought of him looking like...and acting like my old drug dealer. I saw Sarah Palin's face...and her obnoxious and inappropriate winks to the camera...and how she had self served her state for her own tailor fit needs...Then I saw Cheney...and his pinched angry face...allowing and planning torture...and war before getting into the White House...what do you call a man like him? He reminds me of the guy that caused WW2.And Big and Little George...Daddy's War...George and his (not on drugs again...mmmm) twitching, messed up...beady eyed face...in his rare public speeches...lying like his father...lying...lying...lying.I think of the women behind these men...women are the hearts and the love and support technically...where were they?Nah...my comment was just and due and right.Ladies and Gentlemen...In the event of The Obama Administration coming to get you...brace your backs to the cushion...put your head between your knees...then....give your ass a good kiss goodbye...

Jim

Finally, My Little Blue White Fire Gem...OR My Sparkling Angel From Over The Phone...My Friend And Angel Like Lady...Vicky.

I work on a lot of very complex international tickets. Some take over an hour to complete. For the tickets that are not written in English or, not figured in US dollars or, if tickets are written out with letters I cant read, for example, tickets from China or Saudi Arabia...I call a special desk located in another state. As you've heard me say before, I don't believe in co incidence. When I have a really difficult ticket that I can't access the "backdoor" to it in my computer system(all tickets have something written in the computer and/or on the computer system itself all code like letters, numbers and signs that it would take too long to explain here but, I need the info)...I call this desk. They have access to the Global ticket computer...I don't know how they do it really. It's usually after I've pulled out all my hair and when I start on my eyebrows...I call. When I'm having the worst day...the day when you work and stand looking down over the computer all day...switching to your bi-focals because...you don't have 1 second to go to the men's room to remove your contact lenses...that you...so embarrassingly rip them out of your dried out eyeballs in front of the shocked face of the passenger...I mean, on days like the ones I'm talking about...stormy, rainy days when there are no flights going anywhere...and all the people have been backed up for days and want to cut out and eat my spleen (that is so gross...sorry but, you have to be there to get it)and you have to somehow get a little old lady, that is crying and speaks no English... to some obscure place in Macedonia because, her husband is dying...and you can't get the interpreter on the line...and your line is backed up from Phoenix to Tokyo...I always seem to get Vicky...and the misery in the world goes away...

And she returns to me something I thought I had forgotten...my laughter.

I'll be back soon to tell you how our friendship came to be after never meeting in person but, speaking on the phone almost everyday...for up to an hour sometimes...while she scours her computer for ticket validity, rules, codes...etc...I keep the passenger updated...and over time, get to know this beautiful gem that God sent me...

And yes, her eyes are really like the color of a blue white fiery gem.

Bless you Vicky...

Jim

Finally...to finish my Vicky story.

I am very sorry for not updating my website. My computer crashed...and Tom took a long time working on it (God bless him...and thank you God for him...my big computer geek) he recovered a lot of my mp3's...they were tracks sent to me by singers to have me layer my vocals on their tracks...kind of harmonizing or back up singing...
The thing that was totally gone was...take a guess?
Yup...my folders of years and years of my journals...ideas...thoughts...memories...etc...
Gone.
I am not upset now...as I look at it and think...God wants me to deliver to you fresh material...even in my most messed up frame of mind...
I REMEMBER.
...and sometimes I wish I didn't...but, it's all in here...and I'm going to tell you all about it.

Again...out of tragedy comes great art...
Thank you God for my unconditional, loving protectors...NEVER giving up on me.
Ever.

Back to Vicky...

I went to Chicago for over a month on business. Tom and I went there together and we lived out of a hotel room. Normally, I like to travel but, I was ill with painful kidney stones...and whatever those big trucks spray in the air...everywhere at night...I couldn't breathe because of it.
I was in a difficult situation work wise...and I was really down.

This is where Vicky comes in.

After I had spent all that time with her on the phone...we finally met in Chicago.
When Tom and I arrived at the hotel the front desk clerk gave us a huge care package...from Vicky. It contained everything I love...coffee...caramel...mocha wafer sticks...etc...
How did she know?
We eagerly asked the clerk, "What did she look like?!?!?!?" She just said, "well...she's short and has long blond hair...and she's so nice."
I was like, "that's it?"

The whole situation was really strange because, it seemed like on line or over the phone dating...which I've never done.
(My good friend has done it actually...and married the guy last fall)

Tom crashed into bed right away...we were meeting Vicky that night for dinner at the hotel...our day was over 24 hours because, when you leave for a month (I've carried a big briefcase or sports bag my whole life and it contains everything I might possibly need in case of being stuck under rocks due to a landslide) you pack...and check...etc...and you have to be at the airport at 4:30 am. So Tom took a nap...I went and got a really bad haircut and I looked like a bleached blond 80s new wave keyboard player...oh well.
That night Tom and I got ready...all snazzed up.
Oddly though I was nervous...even after talking over the phone...after work as well as we exchanged numbers.

Keep in mind I was in a bad place with work etc...

In the lobby stood Vicky. I knew her instantly. Yes, she was a tiny lady...with blue, white, fiery eyes that melt your heart...long blond hair...and she just sparkled when I saw her...
And just like in a dramatic movie...we ran to each other and embraced...in tears.

And all during my trip to Chicago...she protected and loved me unconditionally.

Once again....

God delivered.
He was so generous...as he put "Angel Vicky" in my life.

The picture was taken when she came to visit me here in the Boston Suburbs. She came at the right time...as you can see (I wish the picture quality was better) Autumn was casting it's beautiful display of the trees leafs swan song...a good bye...and a promise to come back in the spring.

Thank you Vicky.
Thank you God.
Full Circle.

Cherished Hearts Over The Phone Become Sparkling Angels

In life you will find...that there are tiny, little, loving treasures, as small as one of the sands of time...that a lot of times can be overlooked...because you blinked...or because you just couldn't look past your own misery...that turn out to be priceless jewels...that money just can't buy.

And if you're are incredibly blessed...they will remain in your life here...and way up there in heaven...

For the times that I cared enough to look...I thank God...and then keep looking for them every chance I get.

In my very different life...I've been with a major airline for 12 years. I'm the guy frantically working to get you on your way...quickly, efficiently, safely...and with great CARE. I, as you can imagine, meet so many people 1 by 1...and I won't remember a name...but always a face...and if given the opportunity that I always try for...small talk, that sometimes turns to heart talk...and we both walk away kind of teary and feeling, "Touched By An Angel"... because we really were...

That is what I live for...the glimpses into the lives of a many different people. I love that I'm able to meet them all...take a peek into their many different lives...and see for myself where God is in their mind, thoughts, hearts and souls. Hey, mean people, or my interpretation of mean people, aren't those that are frustrated and just having a bad day...Mean people forget to look for the tiny things...instead of keeping and grabbing all they can...even at the expense of someone else's livelihood.

My mission is to help people find those sands in time...

This is the story of me finding the most sparkling blue white fire priceless gem...

I switched careers within my company. I taught myself...a month long course of international ticketing...thrown to the wolves...hands on...learning quickly...from ticket, to person to listening...then fixing, selling...or changing all that tiny writing on the bottom of your ticket...the red flimsy ones and the blue card...

You see something like this.

250.00ttl bosiad 120.00/iadpdx 120.00/ bos1.00ay 1.00xt 1.00zp 2.00us pdxiad 2.50ay 1.00us 1.00xt .5000 zp bosiadpdxiad 140.00 10.00ay end

If you think that's f'd up you should see me with a round the world ticket...with so many rules, restrictions, entry requirements, visas, schengen visa, less than x amount of transfer time from fratlvdbx...etc...this, believe it or not is kind of logic and creativeness...and brainstorming.

All the while...I get to enjoy the people...some of my favorites are the family of four that saved 5 years to take their kids to Disney...the parents, saving every dime, working so hard and long for this event...and (most of the time they are innocently clueless, nervous, and having NO clue about the protocols of taking a flight or ,taking a flight these days for that matter but, they, in their skittishness, are so proud) they are just as excited as the kids...or to the uber wealthy daily business flyer...that could buy and sell the airport and airline...with loose money in his pockets asking, "hey, again Mr J...did my upgrade clear? How's Nana, Mom and Tom...see you in 2 days..."

Again, I have to say...I love them all.

Sometimes, rarely...no matter what you do...it's almost like, you want to get a hold of "Michael, The Arch Angel"... to burn up a violent, bigoted moron...that you can never get them to come out of the mindset of new money, ridiculous expectations of self righteousness, superiorism, and their elitist demands.

I usually can turn a raging storm into a baby's sigh with a glare and a loud voice of me controlling the situation...putting out the fire...by saying, "I can't work with you...I don't like your condescending attitude...and quite frankly I'm a bit threatened by your loud voice and it's tone...so, I'm the good guy...I'm here to help...so come down here for a minute and we'll talk..."

I've been...most of my adult life, around great wealth...I was never impressed with cash, stocks, land or shares...homemade peach cobbler, from the market bagger, that took me on a date to the dog park...that impresses me. I think a lot of my relationships were from people of wealth...trying to be a pompous, show off to me on a date berating the waitress...to the point of me excusing myself to the bathroom...and not affording to but, it was the "Right Thing To Do"...giving the young waitress a cheer up pep talk...validating her as a human...and trying to get across from my life experience...to forget about people like them...pray for them...for they are pathetic. "Now" I would say as we start laughing, "Where is the back door to this place...I gotta get out of here..."

A lot of people tried to bring me down, hurt me, belittle me...so massively, that no matter what my faith is or was...or my feelings of self worth, which they quickly learned...were next to zero at points in my life. (I was in a very weird business where you're taken at a price...not talent...and you had best succumb to their demands for you to work...that you were told to live in the gym...don't get a pimple...watch your weight...you're up a few, Mr Ford...and did you ever think of wearing green contacts...designed especially for you...etc...It's all corporate greed now, some entertainers have talent, some are just a synthetic products of Hollywood ceo's...a synth'd voice...pec muscle implants or nose jobs (that one I'm guilty of, but I can breathe better...haha) and HUGE marketing for a poor soul that has know idea what they are getting into.)

So with them knowing this about me...and even worse, knowing I was so lonely for someone that...I would go down in flames.Just as they wanted. Sometimes I think that in their huge wallets, there was nothing they could pull from it that would knock me out...I guess, at that time, I was a face for people...and in those relationships...it had nothing to do with the affairs of the heart. Not for those I went with (sometimes for years) anyway.

I'm in a relationship now almost 6 years strong...with a very different kind of person...but I've met my soul mate...God delivered when I was ready...on his terms. And you almost NEVER expect it...Love at first sight, some call it. Whatever...it's real. I've never been the same. If I left the planet tomorrow...Now that I am complete with God...love...intamicy...open heart and mind and eyes...I would feel that I, "really did see it all" with my lessons learned (I believe in lessons learned not mistakes) and I would leave, without a doubt, knowing that Life...sometimes painful, yes...was well worth the ride while on my mission.

Back to my priceless, blue white fire...shining gem...

I'll tell you a little later, as I've got to run to the market. I remember when I could send somebody to the market...I'm glad I dig doing things with Tom and/or myself.

Be back shortly...

Jim

Addictions. Where it took me...and how I walked away. This will be an ongoing thread of my recovery...and my Full Circle return...

The above photos are the loving people God blessed me with...those that didn't walk away...even in my darkest hours...My heroes, my heart and soul...forevermore...

To the many that have unconditionally loved, supported, had faith in me, picked me up again and again...with out condition. The whole "Full Circle" story is posted on another site. It's well explained. It's about where I was...who I met along the way...those that walked away from me...and those who stayed to fight the incredible demons of addiction with me. I'm Full Circle...like life, love and the planet...coming back to give back what was so freely given to me.

I would like to post here my letter to Lydia Cornell. I was staying in Marina Del Rey...and I sent her an email. We met up a few times. I met her husband and sons...and went to their beautiful home in Beverly Hills for dinner. We ran down memory lane...and what a lane it was.
I used to live 1 block West and 1 block North from Lydia...yes, we were neighbors...Thank God.

Dear Lydia...Funny how things come full circle...like life, the planet...like love, no beginning...and no end.I've written a couple of stories for CNN that they took. Some about family, politics, God...and the sins of greed...and the joy of little cherished things that we take for granted.Thank you for starting my journey...at the very beginning (with a lot of patience and a lot of love) to a clear open mind...eyes wide open...not jaded...just aware...watching and experiencing the joy of God's blessings (his gifts) to us. I'm fully aware...but I will always somewhat maintain an innocence.I lost my grandmother in my arms a few months ago...it was just as amazing as how I lost my sister. In my heart...I would never grieve so bad that I would deprive her of what she worked so hard for (95 years)...the gift of heaven.I would like to let you read my story sometime.Anyway, back to "the full circle" thing.I have been blessed with so many people in my life...including you...that unconditionally loved me...had faith in me...gave me many chances...and believed in me so much that you guys picked me up and dusted me off again and again...and pointed me to my journey on the planet.I'm here in L.A. staying on the Marina. I'll be here until Thursday. I've been set onto yet another mission...to come full circle and help someone that helped me immensely.My "Aunt" Inez was my neighbor in Beverly Hills. She lived in the city from 16-81. When her apartment was acquired by a new "greedy" owner...he illegally evicted seniors and 2 disabled people. They didn't know their rights. They didn't know it was illegal (at that time) they didn't know the resources they were eligible for...They were banished from their kingdom...the only place they knew...to the streets with a promise of $ 5,000.My friend worked until her mid 70s. She was an old time switchboard operator at a hotel...and then for almost 40 years as the elevator operator at the Beverly Wilshire Hotel...She was rewarded 600.00 in retirement. She didn't know about SSI, Medical, Prescription coverage...or anything. She sleeps in a sleeping bag on the floor in a shoe box room on South Croft Ave...East of the Beverly Center. You can't remove an 86 year old woman from the only place familiar to her. Her rent is close to $700.00...it scares me to think where she got the "extra" to help her cover her bills.I came from Boston to help. Not for accolades...not for points...just for the only "right thing to do". No one else would help. I do a lot of work for the people who can't, won't or don't know how to. I have a lot of doors slammed in my face. So, God bless her, my grandmother taught me to either open another door OR if there are no options...kick it down.My friend now has SSI...medical insurance...prescription insurance...and someone to check in on her. Now she has some vitamins in her...and she has come "full circle" from the dark of Night...to face in the Sun.Seniors paved the way for us. They worked so hard for everything we have. They always did the right thing.Seniors are now discarded, dismissed and forgotten.I kicked down some doors.On this journey, I won't forget what I've seen and learned...and I will never be the same...in a good way.Sorry to reference my grandmother again...but, she raised me...she raised 4 kids during the depression...single handily when her wife beating husband walked out. She maintained her faith in God...and Mom's are survivors...she relied on God and Faith...and she always did the right thing...Here was her simple rules to life...God does not have many demands on us.He wants us to do the very best we can.Love one another.Enjoy his blessings on HIS planet.Always do the right thing.And when your journey is complete...he will take to home.As, we are all heirs and heiresses to God's Kingdom.I LOVE you Lydia...I follow your writings. You have helped to empower me to do the right thing.I have no false illusions.I hope you and your beautiful family are safe and well.I wish you prosperity in God's blessings.I hope you are still enjoying the fruits of life....and I hope you are still always doing the "Right Thing"...

Full circle.

Full circle.

Much love,

Jim and Tom

This is among the many of the stories I want to reach out and help people with. Addiction is a disease...hard to kick...but you need HELP. God...never left you...you return to him...and call on family, friends and professionals.





I choose NOT to keep it a secret.





It's like...shhh. Don't tell anyone Jim was at a party again, up in the Hollywood Hills...with Big Time You Know Who...and he was drinking Dewars' Scotch...one after the other...and OMG...he put everything up his nose but a BUS...and did you know...





The stories about me go on and on...I'll set the record straight for me and many. You will get the "REAL STORY"...I promise.

This is a video of Stevie Nicks talking about her REAL STORY about drugs. This I will tell you...I've been there. I don't recommend that journey and if I can prevent just one person (I hope many) from taking the same path I did...it's worth my existence here. I hope to tell people about how I've learned and traveled down many of lives paths...THE HARD WAY. And I hope from one of my true stories...others will choose differently...and maybe the paths to what needs to be achieved for our goals won't be easy...but, I hope to help people prevent the pain and sadness.

I've been right where Stevie was. It hurt. Bad.

God Protect and Bless Farrah Fawcett

The woman was so famous that people would just buy magazines because her photo was in it. Then "The Enquirer" and "The Star" would put a new picture of her on their front page from time to time with the by line, "There are no Farrah Fawcett Stories This Week..."

I followed Farrah's career...up to today. I feel like I somehow betrayed her for not watching her "biography" play out on TV. She is a brave, TALENTED woman with a huge heart. Yeah, sometimes the "media" wasn't so kind to her...regarding her movie roles. IE "Somebody Killed Her Husband" and "Sunburn". And in her personal life ie Lee Majors and Ryan O'Neil and her recovering son...that she adores, Redmond. I knew she was better than that. I just had a hunch.

The play she was starring in that led to the movie, "Extremities" knocked me and the world out!

Farrah has talent!!!

The TV roles and Movie roles subsequent to that meaty role she played so well, were now recognized as "Best Actress" material. The "Burning Bed" also knocked us out.

I look at Farrah now...with tears in my eyes...as she is saying a painful "good-bye" to her billions of fans. I'm sad, of course but, Hey...Look at her life, her masterpieces and accomplishments...right up to the final hours she's living. Bringing awareness to Rectal Cancer. I hope people are now aware that there was next to NO FUNDING for any kind of research during the last administration for cancer like hers...or any other illness for that matter. No one in the "House" seemed to care...All eyes were supposed to be on the "War" as we were robbed blind and stripped of our rights as private citizens.

Things are changing...I feel the Electricity. The Right side is furious that the changes are working...the evil one's are plotting the worst for Obama and his wonderful, righteous Administration, with our best interest at heart. NOT MR and MRS Moneybags ONLY!

I would like to offer a quick all encompassing prayer...for those that "don't believe" just skip this part...

Dear God, Jesus, Mary and all the Angels...

Here we are again, here I am again touching base.

Please help us that want to heal. Please look at Farrah and the people like her
That are in so much pain but choose to think of their mission
Through their agony...
Thank you for all our blessings...
Please bring awareness of your
"Always with me" presence.
I know you never left me
That's why I'm still here.
Thank you for Lydia Cornell....
The very first person to tell me what was going on with me...when I was in withdrawl from my addictions.
When I was so sick...
Please heal the those afflicted with diseases.
Please heal those afflicted with addiction.
Please put "healers" in the path of people that need them the most.
Thank you for letting me be there...always.
Thank for never letting go.
Thank you for letting me opt for different paths...
Thank you for letting me and many teach about certain paths from hard experience.
I love you
Full Circle
Please continue to Bless and Protect us all...
Amen

Farrah Fawcett wasn't just one of Charlie's Angels...She was everyone's Angel...

Jim Hillis

WELCOME EVERYBODY!!! From Jim Hillis

Well, I've finally gone ahead and did it. This is my new website. I really hope everyone likes it and will contribute.

I have a ton of ideas in many files on my hardrive and on my phone. I always would encourage anybody to reach me at Jim@jameshillisford.com with their ideas.

I plan to help enrich people's lives with my own experiences and yours. Out of tragedy comes great art. That old saying is true. Little by little I'll let you know the real story...and maybe in one of my stories will be "an answer in waiting" to one of your questions, thoughts...etc. I hope, because of some of the paths I have taken to get here...and they weren't always pleasant...might make you design a different path for yourself.

I'm am the happiest, blessed guy you will come across. Believe me, I don't go around singing like, "Mary Poppins" but, I truly shouldn't be here because of a series of events in my life. Life is all about taking chances. Life is not about settling for the path of least resistance. The Universe is meant to be challenged. With the help of God...or your Spirit...or Angel etc...(anything from what you deem "the Divine") anything is possible. If this weren't true...we'd have no electricity, cell phones etc... Just ponder the universe for a second. Why does the sea...stay in the sea and NOT flood the land and houses and people. What makes the earth, our beautiful home...spin so perfectly that it's timed...right to the dot. I mean, here in Boston, we have 4 seasons...like everywhere, but, the leaves explode with colors in Autumn. Spring brings new life with ducklings...green grass and flowers...Winter is snowy, cold and full of icicles and slippery driveways. And the summer is where I retreat, when I can, to the vast blue Atlantic Ocean along the Maine coast.

Again, I'm just getting started. Please, everyone, help me along. You'll see the title of my first story for my site. This woman is awesome. Lydia Cornell. You just will love her "REAL STORY".

I pray you'll love to drop in and enjoy the "ride called life" with me and experience each other's journeys here in our greatest gift called life.

Please comment below!




Jim

THE LYDIA CORNELL STORY...by James Hillis Ford

COMING SOON...

The story of a very long friendship that has lasted for years. This woman, in a lot of ways, saved my life. She is a very famous and gifted actor, comedienne and the most incredibly gifted writer and journalist. If you haven't checked out her "Beirut Diaries" it's journalism at it's best. Take a look at her site. http://lydiacornell.com/ for such amazing, in depth stories and view on everything from Politics, Corruption at it's worst, and my favorite...the healing we all need from the political crimes of the last administration. She is NOT afraid to touch on anything.

There is nothing like the story of this woman. It will leave you stunned, changed for the good...for she can get you heart and soul...and help you through her own experiences...and remind us all of how blessed we truly are.

Married now, she has a son and a stepson and lives in a beautiful English Tudor home in Beverly Hills. She used to be my neighbor. Always working...full of light and energy.

Classically stunning this lady looks 10 years younger than she is. I saw her last a couple of months ago after a long time. All eyes are on her...and I'll tell you the secret of her famous beauty. Yes, she has a perfect face, body and hair but, her inner beauty, her heart and soul, love and compassion for everyone, and her self being always in touch with the Divine...shines though her whole presence. And grabs you!

I promise you will be amazed by her interview...and you'll learn a lot about your own self as well.

My eyes still close when someone speaks her name...

My best friend, hero and teacher...

The lady that saved my life (I won't tell you how many years ago)

Lyida Cornell

Just a quick update on Lydia...

She's been very busy authoring her book...and running her own heavily visited blog. Her fans adore her...and those that visit from both parties debate really strongly.

Her latest "call out" is the crime of "The Homosexuality Crisis in California".

Here is an excerpt that I wrote on her blog regarding this matter...

"Lydia...You know my whole take on this. Hatred of Gays, hatred of "foreigners", hatred of "towelheads" etc...I am Gay. I didn't know it until my mid 20s. I had always been with women until then. I came to you when I was questioning my sexuality because of how society made me feel about myself. Imagine...in your 20s...in the business I was in...finding out you'd rather share your bed with another GUY?!?!?!Do you know what? That's all it is. You know of recent events in my life where I feel shame.THERE SHOULDN'T BE ANY SHAME!GOD MADE EVERYONE IN THE LIKENESS OF HIMSELF! PERFECT!For the bigots screeching and hollering about how sinful homosexuality is (anyone remember Haggard?!?) they should check their OWN backyards...or BACKSIDES?!!!!!Those that holler the loudest and the most are guiltiest of the crimes.This "league of mother's for families" should be promoting "ALL FAMILIES" children from same sex couples are mostly the most normal well rounded children given every chance to grow...for their not usually living in a bigoted house cloistered with hate.Hate teaches hate.What California did was a crime. It's unconstitutional...and it is sad.It doesn't matter what my take on gay marriage is...or my take on anything for that matter.Those that condemned people like me... I want to see their papers proving they are the new messiah or the one that had the authority to re-write the constitution...because God and the Constitution says..."All men are created equal!"Where did my "equal" go?It was taken because I sleep with a guy that I love?Not with a hooker doing meth...Haggard is capitalizing on his crimes. "It is a sin if I act on homosexual urges...for it is not God like and it's a sin."Ted, says who?Hate says who.Hate teaches hate...and it all starts at some bigots home with their family that has no chance.For those that are that far gone...I'm so sorry. And for those that keep believing...don't stop, your pay is due and will come...I promise.Pray."
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