Merry Christmas...And Yes, It Was A Holy Night...

Hello everybody...

I'll be honest. I had a very difficult time this year past. I DO sometimes take my own advice and remember...everything happens for the greater good...God never, ever leaves you...pain and misery are an option...and live for this very second that I'm writing this. I continue to see miracles great and the miracles that mostly go unnoticed. I always try to do and be the very best I can.

I would never lie to you...

I'm on YOUR side...

When I started here and before in my freelance I always said that I would call out things and people on our beautiful planet...I will always call out the good. And sadly, I do call out the bad. We know what is right, God, Christian, etc...
Sadly, seldom remember love. Greed. What are you going to do with all that money and your illusion of power? That is part of my quest for the New Year.

Also, for the first time...in a long time, I'm facing a bit of fear. This semester starting in January is very important...and will prove my true testament of my quest. I, as you may or may not know are continuing on in school toward my Social Science degree. I am already an advocate...Now I'm fine tuning...and perfecting it...So, there will be NO FEAR. I am and will continute working as a voice for those that can't or don't know how or...for those that have had their voices stolen.

I will not stop...
The healing has begun...

Continue with me and return the planet to love...and let's help everybody to "always do the right thing and God's work"

We must protect the least of us.

What would you do if you knew a disabled or mentally retarded person was dying and crying and hurting over some nasty scheme created by an idiot politican. No, I can forgive you Mitt Romney, Sarah Palin, Deval Patrick, George Bush Jr and Sr, DICK Cheney...and all the evangelists putting conditions on love and teaching hate and division...and for cashing in on Jesus' Name. Shame on you. Ted Haggard, haven't you learned your lesson? Leviticus is over...we are CHRISTians of Jesus Christ and the New Testament...NOT a person was condemned by our Savior...he bore our sins and ailments...and died for us. Unconditional love. That's was his whole message...and mission. Haven't you learned that, Ted, GW, Cheney, Pailin, Romney etc...? You all claim to be Christians...but, you preach and cause hate, divison, greed, self profit...and lies. In the new year I will expect even more miracles...what you belive does manifest.

Please, Bless and Heal the World, God...
As you have always been doing...
And like our awesome president, Mr Obama said, " I promise to help each and everyone of you...I'm not perfect...and most of all I need each and everyone of you to help..."

And the world turns.

Peace...
Joy...
Harmony...
And Much love,
Now...until the hour of our death.
Amen.


Please listen to this song. Silent Night. A very old Christmas carol...and my favorite. Stevie's version has a few added lyrics...and has a Rock Punch...That truly drives the message home.

Well it was a Holy Night.
Silent Night.

GOD DELIVERS!!!

When you pray to always do the right thing...God delivers...in the strangest ways, sometimes.

I was just in a parking lot about 15 minutes ago...and I looked at the car next to mine. Tommy was driving and I was waiting for him...I was in the passenger seat. A woman with beautiful skin came past me...we nodded and smiled. She was just about to close the door when I realized she had a little sticker on her window.

HATE FREE ZONE

So...you know I have to talk to her...my window was half opened and I motioned to her to roll down her window.

In a 10 minute conversation...I, in my heart and soul, believe God placed her there.

I'll tell you why.

She was parked too close to my door for me to get in the car at first. Tom pulled the car out...I got in and he parked the car again. I was a little grumbler...I have been lately. The weather here has been very gloomy...London, Seattle...You know?

I've been feeling very uninspired. I shut the world...and my loved ones off. I withdrew into a dangerous place...ME MYSELF AND I. I was in self pity...I was bitching to my self...degrading my self...all alone. I stayed in bed...and it actually hurt to get up and pee or get a drink.

I had an appointment today...to be a hair model, with my mom too.

We got to talk...I was mono tone...Gloomy, threatening skies.

The sky is crying.

After seeing this sticker...and meeting this lady...my life turned....

No, the sky is not crying, the sky is blue...(somewhere...or it'll be back)

We in 10 minutes, spoke of love, pain, religion, SPIRITUALITY, equality, gratitude...and just about what we are all supposed to be about. Like an open antenna...receiving and giving love...

Full Circle.

There are no co incidents...

And, Lady...I'm really bad with names but I never forget a face...

I'm thanking God for you as I write...as I have been since our meeting.

Tommy remarked, "OH, GEEZ...HE'S BAAAAACCCKK~"

Yes, I am...thank God.

People open your hearts.

Believe in Miracles.

Let's work together.

Let's not size each other up.

Let the weary gain strength.

Let us forgive the sins that put the world where it is now.

Lets make everything, together, the way we always wanted it.

The way God wants it.

His demands aren't heavy...

Do the best you can...

Enjoy his gifts...

Love one another...

...and the PROMISE...

No, I will not leave you...

And you will not die...

For you shall have everlasting life...

That is my mission. To grasp at that. I'm a regular guy...I get caught up in crap.

I believe.

I wasn't expecting it.

God never left me.

God delivered.

In the market parking lot....

Just when I needed it most.

"...there are angels here on earth...and some of them are way up there in heaven...."

Love

Full Circle

I'm Better

Thank God.

...and THANK YOU...MISS...you know who you are...I do too...

A little Polical Thing...A respone I had written on my friend Lydia Cornell's website regarding the question...Why are Republicans so afraid?

The image above I found on my computer...this picture was taken last winter. It's weird how these strange tricks of light happen in pictures. This one always reminds me of an angel caught by the camera...It's like protection. From darkness...evil...saddness...loss...and WAR.
Tom had taken this picture...he called me and I looked over my shoulder...and he snapped by surprise...and this is the dramatic result...I think it's fitting for this litte political thing for the reasons explained above.
I'm glad I can share it with you...

Yes, I am very outspoken politically...it's part of my "The Right Thing And God...And My Quest..."

Below please read what I had written on my friend Lydia's site. She has the best, hot topics...

And I'm NOT afraid...

The truth shall set you free...

Republicans are running scared because, they are one by one, actually, many by many...are being exposed for the crimes they have committed. Self severing people. The last 8 years of what happened to our beautiful country and all its people...is now an exposed crime. Did George and Company really think we were that dumb? While we were terrified over terrorists...and watching the repug fed media..."the war on terror" was a shameful fraud...a distraction for us here in the states. We were being robbed blind by our own leaders. The people didn't select them...the money bought them...and they delivered. All the while "the war on terror" (not the war on oil...or the 'illusion of terror') ran on and on and on...what the hell are they fighting for? Everyone is dying over there...Americans and regular normal people just like you and me from the war torn countries.If George and Company wanted to battle the war on terror...HE SHOULD HAVE DONE IT RIGHT HERE IN AMERICA...SECURING THE BORDERS...SHOWING UP WHEN THE SUPPOSEDLY UN BREACHED LEVY'S IN NEW ORLEANS FLOODED AND KILLED PEOPLE JUST LIKE YOU AND ME.Everything they stood for was so Un-American.I love what good ole Joe Biden said.When George and Company were elected (yeah right) into office...George put up a "FOR SALE" sign on the White House's front lawn.Freedom bought changed hands and was sold. Those that let, without any feelings of...I don't know...shame...sadness...guilt... etc... are now being head hunted... where did the money go? Why did you do that? How could you let that happen?They are scared because the new "Left Team" is coming to get them...and they have no where to hide.Pray.God forgives you...and we as Christians should forgive you...BUT...not everyone is like that...Sorry.

I was thinking what I had written was really harsh...then I saw Mitt Romney's face (he and his slick $200 haircut...and nasty sneer) and I thought of him looking like...and acting like my old drug dealer. I saw Sarah Palin's face...and her obnoxious and inappropriate winks to the camera...and how she had self served her state for her own tailor fit needs...Then I saw Cheney...and his pinched angry face...allowing and planning torture...and war before getting into the White House...what do you call a man like him? He reminds me of the guy that caused WW2.And Big and Little George...Daddy's War...George and his (not on drugs again...mmmm) twitching, messed up...beady eyed face...in his rare public speeches...lying like his father...lying...lying...lying.I think of the women behind these men...women are the hearts and the love and support technically...where were they?Nah...my comment was just and due and right.Ladies and Gentlemen...In the event of The Obama Administration coming to get you...brace your backs to the cushion...put your head between your knees...then....give your ass a good kiss goodbye...

Jim

Finally, My Little Blue White Fire Gem...OR My Sparkling Angel From Over The Phone...My Friend And Angel Like Lady...Vicky.

I work on a lot of very complex international tickets. Some take over an hour to complete. For the tickets that are not written in English or, not figured in US dollars or, if tickets are written out with letters I cant read, for example, tickets from China or Saudi Arabia...I call a special desk located in another state. As you've heard me say before, I don't believe in co incidence. When I have a really difficult ticket that I can't access the "backdoor" to it in my computer system(all tickets have something written in the computer and/or on the computer system itself all code like letters, numbers and signs that it would take too long to explain here but, I need the info)...I call this desk. They have access to the Global ticket computer...I don't know how they do it really. It's usually after I've pulled out all my hair and when I start on my eyebrows...I call. When I'm having the worst day...the day when you work and stand looking down over the computer all day...switching to your bi-focals because...you don't have 1 second to go to the men's room to remove your contact lenses...that you...so embarrassingly rip them out of your dried out eyeballs in front of the shocked face of the passenger...I mean, on days like the ones I'm talking about...stormy, rainy days when there are no flights going anywhere...and all the people have been backed up for days and want to cut out and eat my spleen (that is so gross...sorry but, you have to be there to get it)and you have to somehow get a little old lady, that is crying and speaks no English... to some obscure place in Macedonia because, her husband is dying...and you can't get the interpreter on the line...and your line is backed up from Phoenix to Tokyo...I always seem to get Vicky...and the misery in the world goes away...

And she returns to me something I thought I had forgotten...my laughter.

I'll be back soon to tell you how our friendship came to be after never meeting in person but, speaking on the phone almost everyday...for up to an hour sometimes...while she scours her computer for ticket validity, rules, codes...etc...I keep the passenger updated...and over time, get to know this beautiful gem that God sent me...

And yes, her eyes are really like the color of a blue white fiery gem.

Bless you Vicky...

Jim

Finally...to finish my Vicky story.

I am very sorry for not updating my website. My computer crashed...and Tom took a long time working on it (God bless him...and thank you God for him...my big computer geek) he recovered a lot of my mp3's...they were tracks sent to me by singers to have me layer my vocals on their tracks...kind of harmonizing or back up singing...
The thing that was totally gone was...take a guess?
Yup...my folders of years and years of my journals...ideas...thoughts...memories...etc...
Gone.
I am not upset now...as I look at it and think...God wants me to deliver to you fresh material...even in my most messed up frame of mind...
I REMEMBER.
...and sometimes I wish I didn't...but, it's all in here...and I'm going to tell you all about it.

Again...out of tragedy comes great art...
Thank you God for my unconditional, loving protectors...NEVER giving up on me.
Ever.

Back to Vicky...

I went to Chicago for over a month on business. Tom and I went there together and we lived out of a hotel room. Normally, I like to travel but, I was ill with painful kidney stones...and whatever those big trucks spray in the air...everywhere at night...I couldn't breathe because of it.
I was in a difficult situation work wise...and I was really down.

This is where Vicky comes in.

After I had spent all that time with her on the phone...we finally met in Chicago.
When Tom and I arrived at the hotel the front desk clerk gave us a huge care package...from Vicky. It contained everything I love...coffee...caramel...mocha wafer sticks...etc...
How did she know?
We eagerly asked the clerk, "What did she look like?!?!?!?" She just said, "well...she's short and has long blond hair...and she's so nice."
I was like, "that's it?"

The whole situation was really strange because, it seemed like on line or over the phone dating...which I've never done.
(My good friend has done it actually...and married the guy last fall)

Tom crashed into bed right away...we were meeting Vicky that night for dinner at the hotel...our day was over 24 hours because, when you leave for a month (I've carried a big briefcase or sports bag my whole life and it contains everything I might possibly need in case of being stuck under rocks due to a landslide) you pack...and check...etc...and you have to be at the airport at 4:30 am. So Tom took a nap...I went and got a really bad haircut and I looked like a bleached blond 80s new wave keyboard player...oh well.
That night Tom and I got ready...all snazzed up.
Oddly though I was nervous...even after talking over the phone...after work as well as we exchanged numbers.

Keep in mind I was in a bad place with work etc...

In the lobby stood Vicky. I knew her instantly. Yes, she was a tiny lady...with blue, white, fiery eyes that melt your heart...long blond hair...and she just sparkled when I saw her...
And just like in a dramatic movie...we ran to each other and embraced...in tears.

And all during my trip to Chicago...she protected and loved me unconditionally.

Once again....

God delivered.
He was so generous...as he put "Angel Vicky" in my life.

The picture was taken when she came to visit me here in the Boston Suburbs. She came at the right time...as you can see (I wish the picture quality was better) Autumn was casting it's beautiful display of the trees leafs swan song...a good bye...and a promise to come back in the spring.

Thank you Vicky.
Thank you God.
Full Circle.